I don’t usually use this blog to talk about myself, but it makes a certain amount of sense to give a brief update here – and it has some bearing on the videos I’ll be posting in the future, I suppose.
I spent the second half of 2006 in Paris, and until recently I thought I was going back for at least the first half of 2007. Everything was in place for my return – I had an apartment lined up, a job, many friends, and an easy route to a Carte de Sejour.
When I talk to people about this, they generally say, “why on earth would you choose NOT to go back to Paris?”
I love it there, but after six months, I was starting to feel strangely uncreative. Though Paris has a lot to offer in terms of beautiful art and wonderful people, I realized that my inspiration as a writer and a filmmaker is here, in the US. And specifically, for the moment anyway, in Minnesota.
I have a lot of issues with the US, with the way Americans live and the way we see the world. But it is my home, and I’m stuck with it. Anything interesting that I can do artistically has to exist, I think, in the context of my culture and in my reaction to it.
Elsewhere, unless I were to actually commit to staying, and investing and integrating over a period of years, I can’t avoid being a tourist, on some level. Even in a place I know as well, and feel as strongly about, as France.
So for now, I’m in Minnesota. This’ll last at least six months, while I work on several projects here that are important to me. After that no doubt I’ll hear the siren song of the Pacific, once again… and we’ll see if it’s strong enough this time to draw me back.
I was worried that if I left the density and visual richness of Paris, I’d soon run out of video haiku material – but then I rediscovered the weather, the seasons here. I have several beautiful snowy scenes coming up – and it’ll be spring soon. And I’m collaborating with some fascinating actors on a project right now. And my cousin’s getting married in New Jersey in March, and my sister’s getting married in LA in June. And hopefully some Eurotrash friends will be flying over for a lengthy and convoluted road trip this summer.
I’m realizing that there will always be plenty of things for me to point a video camera at, wherever I end up. Which is an incredibly reassuring thought.